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05 July 2007 @ 03:58 pm
The true emotion  
I don't think I have ever been so depressed and so truly upset in my entire life as I have been this last week. The people who crashed into me have taken away something thing I loved most, and that was my baby. My green Volkswagon Carbrio. My first car, and I must tell you I will never love a car as much as I did that one. For me one of the hardest things to overcome is the fact that no one seems to understand how I feel. I am utterly sad to the point were I want to throw up at times, and others I am livid in frustration. This car accident was not my fault and probably the second reason why I simply cannot accept that I will now never see my car again and have to let it go. It just isn't fair! None of the cars that I have for the rest of my life will ever replace what has been taken me last Friday 6/29/07. Less than an hour ago I had to say goodbye to my baby knowing that I will never see or drive it again. I can't tell you how I feel because there is no word for it. I have been trying very hard to get past this, but when I finally feel a little bit better I torture myself and start to think that I am just writing off my car, and I never want to feel that way. I guess the only thing that will help me heal is time, but I will ALWAYS remember my car no matter what. I will write more later, but now I am just too sad. Tomorrow I will hopefully work my first day up in little silver. The last time I went there was Friday, that morning... I can say all these what if's like: what if carly never went to mom-mom and pop-pops, or if I had not played the sims when I should've been going over to my grandparents house for lunch. All these things haunt me and make me so sad. I feel like it is still my fault that this happened and I did this to my baby. I meant for anything to happen like this, not at all. Okay I will write later. Cheers...
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Favola - Modà
Beauty is in it's embracepsychoticpoopie on December 10th, 2007 02:27 pm (UTC)
awww...must be hard to lose your first car (not that I have any idea about it...I'm too young to drive). But I'm sure the it had a kick@$$ time with you :D
Did you name it?
tennisbeautytennisbeauty on December 28th, 2007 06:52 am (UTC)
Nope actually I didn't name it, probably being the fact that I couldn't decide whether or not it had been a boy or girl haha.. thanks for posting!
savionapexesavionapexe on July 21st, 2012 07:02 pm (UTC)